One of the hardest things from this isn’t that I lost a boyfriend/partner/companion. Losing that is already hard enough as it is. It’s actually that I lost a friend. It’s not that we fell in love and then he became my friend. No, we were friends first and now I can’t be his friend anymore just because we fell in love. That’s just dookie.
Yes, I miss us and the companionship…but now that time has passed…those feelings have somewhat faded. What I miss is HIM as a person. The friend who is always able to make you laugh; who is always down to do stuff; who will listen and give you sound advice. I no longer have that friend and some days it just sucks because everyone should have a friend like that.